Haven't posted in a while. Been extremely busy trying to get back into school and other things. The little one was sick and needed to go to the hospital. That always takes alot out of me. I know i made a concious decision to be alone but sitting worrying about your child alone is no fun. I seek companionship but at the same time am wary of it. Been alone so long not looking forward to having to answer to someone. I don't know anymore.