My Baby!

My youngest son is 7 1/2 months. I had him when I was only 29 weeks pregnant. I don't really know what happened. I was standing in the kitchen and my water broke! I ran to the hospital and wasn't in labor. So I layed in the hospital for 7 days before I started having contractions. I had a C-section and here he is. He was born weighing 2lbs 15 oz. God is great because as of today he is around 18lbs. He is a beautiful child. I love him so very much. He is healthy for the most part. He has been hospitalized twice since being released from hospital. But he is doing great. Same daddy as my older son. It's all good though.

F@#ked up people

You know I can't stand f@#ked up people. Fake ass, hatin folk. Anyway, took kids to see their daddy. He is intolerable. On my list of f@#ked up people. Actually he is number one!! LMAO!!Just will circumvent anything I try to do to make my children into respectable men. And I know, Ishould've screened him more before having children with him. Nothing I can do about that now. I try to teach my boys the right way. I want them to be respectful and trustworthy. I want them to be law-abiding citizens. I know, I know real B.S. But that is how I truly feel.

Lashonn

Untitled

So I haven't blogged in a few days. Alot has happened in these last few days. But I am well, the children are well, so everything is good. Don't have much to say. Just wanted to check in. Looking for work. Hope unemployment kicks in soon. It is scary out there. Peace

Careers

I changed jobs looking for a career. Everyone told me no. I should've listened. I went on my own thought process anyway. Now I have been in limbo for a month. I wasn't doing well in the new job and not sure if they are going to fire me or give me another chance. I know what I need to do to succeed it's just about getting it done. Not sure of anything at all in my life. life is such a trial.

Music

This blog was supposed to be about being a single mother. And it is. But I also have to address music. I grew up in the 90's. Needless to say I do enjoy my fair share of music. It helps me when I am down and when I want to stay on a natural high. So please enjoy this link. My boy sent it to me and I did. Enjoy!
http://tinyurl.com/cevpgx

Lashonn

Positive Male Role Model

The more you turn the bad ones away, the more they pursue. I would like to have a in house father figure for my boys. My oldest had my ex and he definitely had a major impact on how he acts and who he became to be as a child. Now that he is approaching those "tween" ages I would like someone else to be around. No offense to women who raised their sons alone, it's just not something I would like to do. I don't have a major selection of men who I like. The ones who really want to be there are not my top choices. The ones I have as top choices don't want to be there. So I guess that leaves me to find someone new. I don't really know how to go about that though. I don't like to go out and really socialize. I guess I am going to have to but not even sure how to meet someone. And not to sound so cliche but there isn't a major selection out there. And it's not like I will meet someone and just rush into living together or something. I feel like my children deserve even just a father figure. I know that shit won't work between me and their father. But that doesn't mean they don't deserve to learn how to become men. I don't think it is something I can teach them. I know, I should've thought about this before I had my youngest son. It wasn't his decision to be here. But now that I have two so it's even more important that they see a positive male role model. And my father and mother are still together and alive. Yes, my dad is a great man. They are my role models for marriage and love. But still, I want my boys to see that Mommy can have that too. Is that thinking about myself only?

Lashonn