Not a personal assistant

Now anyone who knows me, knows I have alot going on right now. The baby stays sick and this whole job situation is killing me. Why all of a sudden have I become a personal assistant? So it is time to shut it down. I'm not giving rides, information,making calls, nothing. If it specifically has nothing to do with me and the kids I am done. I don't have a problem helping folks, but when you tell someone you need time for yourself they have no respect. I need a moment to concentrate on self. There is a reason I am not in a relationship. All I have to concentrate on is me and the kids. Thanks for letting me rant.

Hospitals

I took the baby to the ER today. I hate sitting there like I had these kids via some Immaculate Conception. Its so lonely not knowing what's happening next. At least we made it home this time.

re-evaluation

I will be 30 in July. And with that particular age comes a reevaluation of oneself. I think everyone does it to some extent. So my revaluation for the moment consists of the men in my life. And unfortunately that included my baby daddy. But the other two confuse me so much. I love both but one got me smitten. While the other not so much. And the one that has me smitten is the one who isn't feeling me like I am feeling him. One thing that nwver changes regardless of age is trying to understand men. I am tired of being alone (Al Grene). Truly I am. I seek companionship. I miss it a lot. And not even sure its out there for me right now.

Haven't posted in a while. Been extremely busy trying to get back into school and other things. The little one was sick and needed to go to the hospital. That always takes alot out of me. I know i made a concious decision to be alone but sitting worrying about your child alone is no fun. I seek companionship but at the same time am wary of it. Been alone so long not looking forward to having to answer to someone. I don't know anymore.

My Baby!

My youngest son is 7 1/2 months. I had him when I was only 29 weeks pregnant. I don't really know what happened. I was standing in the kitchen and my water broke! I ran to the hospital and wasn't in labor. So I layed in the hospital for 7 days before I started having contractions. I had a C-section and here he is. He was born weighing 2lbs 15 oz. God is great because as of today he is around 18lbs. He is a beautiful child. I love him so very much. He is healthy for the most part. He has been hospitalized twice since being released from hospital. But he is doing great. Same daddy as my older son. It's all good though.

F@#ked up people

You know I can't stand f@#ked up people. Fake ass, hatin folk. Anyway, took kids to see their daddy. He is intolerable. On my list of f@#ked up people. Actually he is number one!! LMAO!!Just will circumvent anything I try to do to make my children into respectable men. And I know, Ishould've screened him more before having children with him. Nothing I can do about that now. I try to teach my boys the right way. I want them to be respectful and trustworthy. I want them to be law-abiding citizens. I know, I know real B.S. But that is how I truly feel.

Lashonn

Untitled

So I haven't blogged in a few days. Alot has happened in these last few days. But I am well, the children are well, so everything is good. Don't have much to say. Just wanted to check in. Looking for work. Hope unemployment kicks in soon. It is scary out there. Peace